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Well, I'm a mostly full time mommy. I'm home as much as possible. Since
Joe died and Joey starting school, I needed to be home with him and available for him so I stay home now. The best
and the hardest job in the world. But the most rewarding thing I believe I could ever do. Being a mom is what
I was meant to do and knew it all my life, being an advocate and outspoken "Mother Warrior" I didn't expect. As I see
my son improving along with the school, the community, and the other children. I just want to do more and more, every
child deserves the best chance, no matter what issues exist. More of that to come.
I was born in NKC, and now live in Plattsburg, MO, by way of Parkville, Smithville, Gladstone,
in MO. Lived in Houston, TX for a few months, and in Des Moines and Creston, IA for a few years and keep coming home.
I went to Smithville High School from
3rd grade to just before my Junior year. Wasn't exactly the best years of my but definitely a start to the shaping of
who I have been and have become. I made a lot of wonderful friends and met some meanies. I went
back to the 20 year reunion a couple weeks ago and I feel so much better about all of my years there. They were very
welcoming, grown up and have more in common then I would have imagined. So thank you Smithvillians.
I moved to Gladstone just before my Junior year,
not the best time to go from a teeny tiny school to a big giant school. I met some very very good friends who I am still
in contact with and getting back in contact with. Then there's the others, you know who they are, they haven't changed
much. But I do have happy memories and some lasting friendships. Thanks Tonka.
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Little Chunkier-May 08
July 08
16 pounds down
So, I have a bit of an obsession
Not so much weight itself
but where it is on my body.
Since I have been a size 3/4 I know how
good I felt about myself no matter what anyone else said. I
felt like that was the body I was supposed to have.
Well there have been plenty of ups and downs but am doing it healthy
this time.
12 pounds to go, woohoo!!!
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I'd love to have that bod again.
Much Better-August 07
August 08
18 pounds down
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I think I'm a little unusual for my age, but I am totally real. I enjoy reading when
I have time to sit and rest by myself, but mostly, I'm a TV junkie, reality shows and soaps are my faves, and older classics
from my childhood. I also like to play Playstation 2 and computer games. I like RPG games mostly for PS2 and Sim
games for computer, World of Warcraft is an addiction. When I don't have much time, I go for solitaire games like Jewelquest
and Zuma. I'm a bigtime dreamer but am still very appreciative of what I have.
My faith has deepened, the older I've gotten and even more since Joe died. I believe
I've seen some of how God works and learned that why and how are questions only He knows the answer to and certainly isn't
required to share them with me. I trust that He knows what he's doing and I will do my best to go with His flow whether
is jives with my plans or not.
I haven't discovered my special talent yet, but I know it's there. I actually think
I have a lot of them, but lack the patience or focus to pursue any of them individually. One of these days, who knows,
maybe I'll finish that novel or design a line of clothing, or create the funniest comic strip or best childrens book, or the
number one sitcom of the year, or maybe I'll just be remembered by someone as the best mommy or the nicest girl they've ever
met or someone that has a heart of gold and cares about everyone, someone who wanted to save the world, whatever God intends
for me is fine with me.
I'm a terrible cook, ask Joe, not a great housekeeper, (I can keep the house clean, but organizing
is not my strong suit)I do NOT iron and could care less about the yard, I'm a chronic list maker, and big time procrastinator,
but I have a big heart and do my best to be my best. I try to treat everyone equal, but can certainly hold a grudge.
I am also just chock full of advice, I want to help everyone that needs help, but am learning that I can't, so I try to just
really show I care.
All in all, I've learned at 35 to accept who I am, the way I am, and I am actually starting
to really like myself. There will always be things to change, but the things that don't hurt me or others I'm just gonna
leave alone. Life is too short to keep working to change things that don't need to be changed.
I've learned in the last year that I can overcome anything. I can depend on myself
as long as I can depend on the Lord. I'm stronger now in some ways, I stand up for what I believe more and fight
for it especially when it comes to those I care about. My anxiety and panic however has gotten worse, I've got a lot
of healing to do. The day Joe died all the work I had done to overcome my anxiety went with him, it was all
justified, and so worse than ever, but I'll overcome that too.
So, here I am.
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